I'm 23 years old this year and all this while, I, like any normal human being, have acquired a vast collection of loves and hates, bad experiences and good ones. And as the years pack on, you learn more, and as you learn more, you'll tend to add on to this collection. However, like any huge collection of items, some tend to be forgotten, buried deeper and deeper under the pile of fresh newly-added times, just waiting (probably hoping) to be found again.
So recently, one of these buried so-called "artifacts", if you will, were indeed dug up. Consequently, I have been forced to remind myself once again that it is definitely not very pleasant when the trust you have given someone is betrayed. Trust, for me and I guess for everyone, is important obviously for any relationship, platonic or romantic, and the degree of trust that is established varies depending on how much you, the truster, are actually willing to invest. For a truster, i.e me, to place a relatively high degree of trust on someone, the trustee obviously has managed to earn it pretty well while the truster (me once again) has certainly done alot of thinking before making a firm decision to place so much trust on the trustee. So now that I've learned that the trust has been breached, I do not know what to feel. Have I actually judged this person wrongly? Have I made too many hasty assumptions about this person? Should I feel stupid about it? Yes, in a way I feel stupid. But to blame myself for something like this is purely stupid itself, so no. I refuse to put the blame on my head.
Or should I?
Here enters buried "artifact" number 2 = not being able to simply place the blame on somebody else when I, possibly, just possibly, may have been responsible for this whole fiasco in the first place and should have seen it coming ages ago.
Well, to hell with all these. I do not need them and can do without them, and I definitely won't resort to blaming myself because that is pure stupidity, like I mentioned earlier. What really matters here is the breach of trust.
It's funny, how a simple discovery of a simple website, led by my own curiosity, would suddenly unearth all these.
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